Thursday, July 9, 2009
Frustration
Sorry to bring the mood down for anyone today. I am a bit sad and frustrated. So I finally got the call from DHS from my transfer of foster licence and adoption paper work from my other adoption agency. Well they got the paper work last week but she said she would call on Tuesday or Wednesday to schedule a home study again.They said they wanted there own home study. Well anyway she called today. I was so excited I ran to my calender to get this ball running. She tells me July has just been so busy and they have so much going on. Then she asked what day is best for us and I told her Monday or Thursday's she said okay can we meet on August 6th. I was kind of like oh is that the soonest because I can take off of work. I am a person that is very organized and very on top of everything. So this is a stretch for me. I was rushing my poor other social worker at the agency to get everything transferred to DHS and for what I have to wait another 4 weeks. I just got down on myself. I know it is silly and it is only 4 weeks but it feels like a lifetime when everyday you are hoping you are one step closer to reaching your dream to be a parent. When my husband got home we took a run. I had to get out the stress and get everything off my mind but the run just made me think about it the whole time so I figured if I blogged about it I can get it off my chest and maybe I would feel better about it tomorrow. I just have to let this go and try not to think about it so that it will come sooner. We were hoping (my husband and I) that we would maybe have a baby by Christmas to celebrate with. The last few years of Christmas have been a real bummer and we celebrate with all of our family but there is no kids in the family. Ours would be the first. I don't know if it is going to happen this year but I am praying for a miracle. Some days are good some are bad. Today unfortunately was bad for me and I just couldn't shack it. I am trying. Well I am going to hit the shower now and maybe I will feel better after that. Thanks for listening and please pray for us. Thanks
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That bites! I'm sorry you have to wait a month. That does seem like forever. When we were waiting for our official approval, it took forever. Our CW needed to present our file to his boss. The boss was on vacation, then sick, then our CW on vacation. It took 4 weeks! I hope the wait passes quickly for you.
ReplyDeletehang in there, it is SO FUSTRATING!!!! Some days I thought I'd go crazy and some days I only thought about it a little but everyday I thought about it =) Your baby is out there and when that day finally comes you will think back and realize it was perfect timing! Some days I sit back and thank God for his timing because we have the children we are meant to have and if it would of happened any sooner or later things would be so different!
ReplyDeleteThat is so difficult especially when you have all your things ready and your such an organizer. Hang in there =)
ReplyDeleteThanks everyone on your suppport. I am trying not to think about it but you know how that is. It is just so frustrating because we already did everything and now they want that stuff again. Ah oh well. I just got to roll with the punches
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